The letter with red marks

I don't know who I am. Yes, I don't know who I am. By the way, I do know my name it is Bella, and I am a 30 years old woman. I was crushed in my life at that time when I finally came to realize the fact that I had a daughter somewhere in the world out there, I never really knew because if I would have I would have already visited her for money, yes I am taking drugs living in downtown, isn't as easy as you thought, my house is at the end of the street, well I know it sounds strange but it is not really, my house at all it is a house that was my grandma's she died thank god! Don't judge, she was more then a hundred years' death was the last thing she could get from those hundred years. sometimes I do ask myself what if I ended up like her but then I tell myself I have a hundred years to waste and I am happy again.

One point I thought everything was falling apart from my life, my children, and myself. Then I realized my life is fucked, I don't have any children and myself is already fallen apart and yeah, in the end, I was again happy.

I love my mind you know it is having a solution to each and every one of my problem that could be a reason to my sadness my mind solves them before me even realizing.

In days, I wonder what if I commit suicide, what if I die? Well maybe that is something that could provide me with attention, well but you know then I think, but it is not great, people will hate me even if they get to see me jump off a building I will be a trend for a day the next day I will be trash floating through the large amounts of internet data which is also trash, I wonder then why the hell would I commit suicide I mean do I really wanna open that lid? like do I really wanna kill myself to see what's on the other side of death, well no thanks, it will probably be even worse than this.

So as I said I am fucked up! I stoled the money from a Child after school, I didn't care he was crying he would have never cried you know if he would have been aware of how much I need this money even more then him, so I guess I did the right thing stealing from unaware is easy and not bad then stealing from an aware person, I do steal from many children you know it's pocket money who cares, I wonder what will happen to the Child after I steal it.

Well, in the end, it's all mystery I don't really care do I, what happened that there was another big bang, but this time it was only for me, outside my house there is a letterbox there is never a letter that comes there normally so I guess I don't look at it a lot mostly if somethings arrives it is for my grandma who is dead, however, this letter that arrived was for me, I was after stealing the money heading home and I found the letterbox filled with a single piece of paper.

It was not a normal letter, yeah I know now the suspense starts how does it feel boo! Well, the letter was having these red blood marks all over it like actual dark blood. The letter was not long but 3 short paragraphs it was more of an invitation than a letter. I still read it, it was written like this :

Luna Street,

valley kolachi,

Downtown,

24, 2, 2007

Dear Mom,

I am your daughter Anny, I know this is weird, this letter. I also know I miss you, I love you, I need you to be there for me I am going to marry this man that I love, he is from a rich and big family, I am rich too, I am a data scientist, I have a very big house where I live, so I do want you to be a part of my life.

My love; the man 'am going to marry. He is from a large cultural family, so there are Uncles, and Aunties, and Parents, and siblings. But as you know I don't have anyone in this world except you so I know this may feel weird or overwhelming but all I want is for you to be there and be my mother for the rest of the life that we both are going to live.

I will be waiting for you the address of the house is down the letter, I would love if you can come, I want to see you, hug you! and talk a lot with you before the wedding. I hope you will come and be my mother.

Your daughter,

Anny

This letter sure in hell looks heartbreaking, however, she is nice throughout but I am confused that why after all these years she will send me this letter with blood on it and be so gentle in her words.

Flashback: I left my daughter when she was born and she was born on 2007, 2, 24, I never had any money and she was born by mistake, and I had no other way but to leave that tiny Child in that orphanage. She looks rich maybe she got into a nice family at least she got what she deserved a better life than her mother's but as she found me, and she wants me there so badly so I guess I will go and I am going today.

She had never met me or seen me but she still is inviting me to the biggest day of her life and want trash like me to be the part of it.

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